Maybe This One Is For You

I don't get it sometimes. There is this silence that's wedged between two people who "used" to know eachother. This energy that for some reason, deters two souls from saying the words they really want to. Well guess what, I think it's a myth. The whole don't talk to someone for years because of something that happened so long ago you both can't even remember the true emotions caused by the event. I think it's a myth that we as humans, put up imaginary barriers because we have supposed "trust issues" and "painful pasts". It's not fair, It's not fair to the love of our life who sits and does everything in their power to be your home, to be your comfort. It's not fair to our bestfriend who wants nothing more but to hold you when life is being a pain in the ass. It's not fair to the outside world that's missing out on our potential, on our gifts and talents. But really, most importantly it's not fair to ourselves. We limit ourselves when we put rules on how much we let show, and how much we let in. And I can almost guarantee that even the smallest of emotion, action and reaction can paint the biggest picture in how we function day to day. We have roots, traits that never change. Facial expressions that we get made fun of, or the way we drink our coffee. Once you get to know someone, you'll always know a part of them no matter how many life changing moments that individual goes through. So no, I don't believe that we used to know people. We know their favourite icecream when they've had a hard day, we know the one family member they always call when life is just a little too much that day, we know how they always forget their keys after they close the front door, we know how they snort when they laugh. These are things that we do without knowing sometimes. And on those sometimes, we don't realize that someone else is picking up on our habits, learning about us and our ticks that make us who we are. We don't realize how important we become to those around us. We don't see the internal moments that our friends and family have where they can exactly relate with us, or the moments where there's spark of bond. Have you ever had a friend that you swore you had no idea how you became so close in such little time? When we feel good around certain people, we don't notice all the little things that are matching up, that are soul filling. Whether you share the same love for music, or the same hate for pineapple on your pizza. Those are the things that we don't think twice about, because it's normal. But knowing me, I ofcourse see those tiny insignificant moments as something much bigger in life. This is how we know each other, these are things that you can bring forth to someone you haven't talked to in months and 98% of the time find it's still the same. Whether we like it or not, it's damn hard to forget someone and all their tiny details that make them whole. What's even more true, is that it's hard to remember why we were so angry, sad, dissapointed, or betrayed in the past. Because often times our brains begin to surface all the wonderful times there were, and it's hard to pin anger to a sunny day at the beach with soda and laughs. Or a night in with a movie and wine. Truth is, I know they'll be someone reading this at some point who knows exactly what I'm talking about. If you do get it, if it does click then please remember the roots of your old friends, the ones that were good. Please remember the roots of your family members. We have the capability to remember and feel familiar for a reason, we know each other we just forget to recognize how amazing it is that we do.

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Xoxo SunshineDealer.