Scatter Brain of a girl today

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Is it possible to love more than one person In your life? Is it real, to be able to open yourself up to more than one experience with one person? Can we be the type of people who see beauty in the flaws that others find awful. We are conditioned to know one way, one path in life. But I am in a chapter in my life where, I have no idea what is going to happen, and I have to admit I am the most excited and lively because of it. I don't feel.... scared. Worried. Anxious. I am electrified and I feel more curious than I ever have. I want to explore every inch of emotion and feeling that there is. I want to be raw, honest, and unapologetic. I don't want to waste my young years wishing I had gone for the moment,- for the feeling , for the right thing. I think there are so many factors that bring young adults like myself down. Realism, pressure, tradition, and more than ever, trend. Mixture of social media and the way we look at each other. It is a world full of comparison and fear of going out and doing exactly what you dream of and desire. One of my dearest friends asked me lastnight, what my goal is, what I really truly want to do in this life time. The main idea that kept popping up in my exhausted mind, was inspiration. Inspiration to get out of this depressive state we're all stuck in, this generation. Inspiration to stop excusing our happiness for others. Inspiration to stop being afraid of failing, to leap for the unrealistic, creative, motivated life. I want to inspire those around me, that's what I want to do. I want to be remembered as someone who went for it, and even if she failed, she loved every moment of it and took each bump in the road as a lesson, blessing, and adventure. I want love to exist for those who have disconnected themselves from it, because of one person, or one situation. I want love to drive people to success, to happiness. If that image consists of falling inlove with ten different people in your life time, or if it consists of loving yourself and taking life full speed ahead with no regrets. What ever the canvas ends up looking like, I want it be all over the place. Give up the idea of order, perfection. Paint with all the colours, re-shape the ordinary, the common, make a change, get others talking... inspire the ones who shoot down every idea you've given.

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Seems like I can't collect my thoughts today, but that's okay. I wanted today to reflect on that a bit. I wanted to show that it's alright to not always have everything in order up there haha. You are not lost in life if you can't decide what you want or need yet. If you can't even decide if you want chocolate or vanila ice cream as a snack tonight. Take your time, but feel urgent in the sense that your happiness matters and you can, and are more than allowed to progress in things that make you want to wake up every day. Don't apologize for moments that electrify your live. God has you, lifted,-and knows your heart.

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Until next week, xoxoSunshine