You Can't Always Plan Life

I'm a human of adventure, bravery, love, and understanding. And as much as I have lived my life spontaneously carrying those attributes with honour , just like everyone else I've had my moments of wanting control. But what I've come to realize, is that forgiveness plays a much bigger part in this life. Let's hangout tonight, make a tea with me, or grab the tub of icecream..both great options. ;)

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My life has always been my own little book, I never compared myself to others with decision making, because for some reason I think I always knew I did things a little bit different from both my friends and family. Those who get to know me and my true intentions, know that no matter the advice I'm given, I won't usually let it alter my mind set, unless it's positive and I see potential of self-growth. And ofcourse, believe me there have been many times where certain advice should have been taken a bit more heavy from my end, but the beauty of it in the end is that I learn from each experience and am grateful for the messed up moments , even more than the good ones sometimes. Here's the thing everyone, there is a very thin line between letting someone grow into their own self, and altering their growth with your own perception of what's right and wrong. Sometimes when we love those in our lives very much, we can overstep without even realizing. And the negative side affect of this, is tension in our relationships. I've seen it happen, and I've felt it more than a few times in my 20 years that I've been on this earth. Sometimes the hardest thing to say is, " I understand you think this way, and I think another. I understand we are different, and what I find to be wrong you could find right. It's ok, as long as we put our love above our thoughts and personal battles." Sometimes we get too caught up in the feeling, in the moment. Anger, hurt, jealousy, embarrassment, stubborness, even sadness. We take our expections and attack others without even thinking before doing it. Some of us like things as simple as a calender. To plan the whole day, week or month ahead, carve out time slots to make sure to include all the important events and moments. Some of us take each day as it comes, and feel happy this way. Those of us, who would very much like to keep up with the calender, but just can't seem to get it right each time. Us, who no matter how many things we check off on that calender, still feel as if we could have done more, going to bed each night still dissatisfied. Us, who can't imagine self destructing due to such " small" opportunities missed or stolen time. We all have a different way of carrying ourselves, our lives. But the absolute worst thing any of us could ever do, is point fingers and judge our loved ones for these very things. We need to begin to be a little more understanding and compassionate when life doesn't go the way we at times would like it to, whether it's about us or those around us. There is only so much we can anticipate, plan, think through. The smallest of decisions and actions can change the outcome of the future. We need to forgive ourselves, others. Remember that we try our best, and that is all that matters. Always, always, always. As many times as you have heard this in your life, I am still going to drill it even deeper into your mind. LIFE IS TOO SHORT. It is TOO unpredictable, it's far too fragile, we cannot waste our precise time not having forgiveness in our set of attributes. I preach about this a lot, but I do feel that it's something that needs to be repeated and thought about a bit more often. I see it in myself, I run myself dry from constantly just getting upset or trying too hard in life. Especially now, we are not living in sunshiney times. We need to pull together and bring the greatest, most uplifting, most loving, and the most forgiving thoughts to surface. Let's let those plans have a "maybe" label on them for a little while. Drink more water, take that extra minute in the morning to enjoy that you've been gifted with another day, make that dish that takes half the day to cook, just because it's your favourite and always tastes the best, binge watch your favourite show, laugh without restriction, kiss your partner, pray, sing, paint, procrastinate, be productive, and be the most authentic version of yourself that you can be. And what I would like to encourage the most here, is to be present and try to accept the downfalls. Treat each moment as if were the first time, get excited, be curious, be attentive, lower the barrier or expectation and fear of failure. There will always be someone there to love and hold you. There will always be space for forgiveness, if you allow it in your world.

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If you haven't heard it lately, I love you. Xoxo,SunshineDealer.